First Thing's First....HAPPY NEW YEARS TO ONE AND ALL

LET'S HOPE 2009 IS  A GREAT YEAR FOR ALL OF US


I don't believe in New Years Resolutions...

but one thing I been wanting to change about myself was to take more chances when it comes to meeting guys


I've always been very shy...and insecure about myself

and in terms of meeting guys...I rarely would go out to "gay places" and meet and mingle

I kept telling myself last Year I need to make more of an improvement

and I did start to go to a few bars last year like "The Dugout" and "Ty's"

and even went to a few events at the GLBT Center so I felt that was a  start

in terms of meeting guys online..I would always talk to guys like crazy on Bear411 but rarely meet anyone for just to hang out or for sex

god don't get me started on my sex life....it was pretty in active!!! not that I couldn't get anyone..cause I can...but me being insecure really held me back!!

I promise myself to change that!!!!

I know I need to improve on myself

I'm going to take more chances
I'm going to start to mingle with more guys

seeing what happens

who knows I might actually get myself in a relationship this year
anything is possible

I'm tired of being alone...and not having any fun

I'm going to have more sex this year!!! haha I promise that to myself

in fact this weekend.....I already set up to meet two different guys from bear411 one for sex and another one just to meet....so really looking forward to this weekend!!! :) :)

I keep telling myself...I'm young...smart...and a really good person....so I need to stop acting insecure and take more chances

2009 is going to be my year to SHINE!

Happy New Years everyone!!

I'm so excited to say that I am fullfilling a Life Long Dream of mines

On April 5, 2009 I will be attending Wrestlemania 25!!!!! in Houston, Texas at the Reliant Stadium


Words can't describe how excited I am

this is a dream that I thought would never happen

I've been a life long wrestling fan since I was born it seems

I have a passion for pro-wrestling

so much I wanted this to be my job
I went to wrestling school years ago to train to be a wrestler..and it didn't work out for me
I gave it my all 100% but my body gave out on me..and I kept having back problems and problems with getting headaches

I was devasted that I couldn't fullfill my dream job

but I remain a wrestling fan

recently some of my friends on YOUTUBE and I were talking about Wrestlemania

and things just happen so fast

next thing you know it....my friend is ordering plane tickets and booking a hotel

and then a few days later I bought the tickets

and now we'er set

I go on youtube alot and talk about Wrestling..and develop quite a wrestling following which has really shock me...and I've enjoy talking to people and making friends

and to know I'm going with a group of wrestling fans and friends to the biggest wrestling show on earth is amazing!!!

of course I will be the only gay guy in the group...(it always seems like that) but its all good

I'm going to have the time of my life in Houston for those 3 days I'm there

Wrestlemania here I come baby!!
hope your ready for a city slicker like me :)

Well it appears I've been burn by yet another group of  "friends"

recently I started to hang out with this guy...and he introduce me to all his friends..and they had this tight group of guys...all gay

and its something I've never experience...

something I've been so desperately needing!!!

and for the 1st time in a long time..I felt I finally got what I wanted

a group of gay friends...I can hang out with...chill...do fun stuff go out and laugh with

I was so happy....the past few weeks..hanging out with them

then out of no where!!!!!! they just cut me off

I try to instant message them on yahoo....they don't respond

I text them on my phone...they don't respond

I call them on my phone they don't respond

they took me off there myspace friend list

I'm left stun and confused

not knowing if  I did anything wrong for them to just kick me to the curb like that

it angers me so much!!!!!

Why can't they just tell me what happen...
give me a fucking reason!!!!!! to why they don't want to be my friend

I am just left wondering

I hate this

all I want is to make a group of gay friends

I know only but straight people...and all my straight friends are annoying me
and don't understand me anymore

so I am left to be alone....to not have anyone to talk to...to hang out with....to laugh  and cry with

I just don't get why I can't meet gay men that want to be friends...and not want a fuck buddy or just any form of sex from me

I just don't get it

I'm so fucking sad right now...........................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR OLD MAN!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU :)


HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR    B-DAY BUDDY

HUGS